Just a quick update.

Hey Guys, It has been a little while i havent wrote a post but i also been blogging at http://thytgurl.tumblr.com/ . I have been very busy with my son he growing up so fast and i been working on my associates degree in medical speacialties and hoping to start nursing in the spring or fall of 2012. so i have alot on my plate as well trying to lose all this weight by may 4th b/c i am going to puerto rico to visit my in-law's and its my God-daughters 2nd birthday. to then start planning my son 2nd birthday and so on so im just going to get more busy. But i need to get back to cleaning to then hit the gym and get some hw done. take care. if you like me to write about anything please leave a comment and will glad to write something for you thank you.

GYM......

So after having my son a year ago my body has changed so much. the old workout’s dont work. but by reading alot of shape and fitness magazine. as well as watching “the biggest loser” and “i use to be fat’ it motivates me b/c you see the amout they shed with diet and excersise. sometimes we all forget that all we need is hard work and deciation. that’s what im doing. i cant lose weight over night but i will within a year. With God help support from family and friends. i will do this.

new outlook in life...

 How many of you guys my age feel like your behind in life? I dont understand why i feel this way. I partied everywhere in boston, providance and more. I feel like my life of parting is over. i been doing it since i was 18yrs old how much time do you need? lolz..come on people be realistic. I am now a mother so i have to find new ways to spend time with my little one as well as keeping the fire burning with my man. I was to travel more. I just want to go to Vegas, California, Texas, NYC, Japan, Paris, Spain, Africa and bora bora. I plan to go to NYC again but this time for new years and i will like to go shopping and do everything tourist do..lolz..why not? I am going to Puerto Rico in May but i been there since i was 12 so nothing new but that more of a family event. Crazy how were in one stage of life and now to the next i wonder what the next 10 years will bring me....

Beyond The dream....

At time's we all stop and wonder what is our purpose in life.

How is it that the things we need take so much work. Some people turn to God while others just live life the way they see it. Take a minite and

STOP!  Look around.

Look at everyone that is successful in life.

Those who were nothing and have everything the dream for.

Look at those who have dropped out of school and still made it big.

like John D. Rockefeller Sr., Steven Spielberg, Bill Gates, Halle Berry and many more.

There is a quote that stood out to me and it is " In a world where you can be anything BE YOURSELF".

All of these sucessful people have done so. They all done something that they love to do. When you find something that you love it no longer becomes a job. It becomes a career. So what is your dream? How will you accomplish it? What is standing in your way? One day I will love to be a Doctor. What is standing in my way? I'm a young mother. My son comes 1st. BUT I will reach my dream one step at a time....HOW WILL YOU GET THERE? ASK YOUR SELF AND I'LL MEET YOU AT THE TOP!

Trace's of the heart.

Sitting on the stool looking into the mirror. An old depressed woman. Alone. All she sees is this beautiful locket silver with pink diamonds. Not recognizing the person in the picture. Sitting and wondering whom it might be. Completely lost still not understand her purpose in life. Still suffering from a broken heart due to her ex fiancé. Never lasting in any relationship. Never feeling confident, struggling alone, with no family support. The stress of feeling like no matter what she does she will never reach her goal. She closes her eyes while holding the locket close to her heart. She say’s, “ If only I gave my heart completely to one person what will they do?” Beginning to cry she starts to remember. She feels like its all coming back to her the person in the locket, her child. The one she completely changed her life for. Accepting her own flaws as a young single mother at 21. Motivating her self to finish college, to get a job to support the only positive person in her life. A child not asked to be brought into the world of hatred, an unborn fetus that will not understand why daddy is not in there life. So she says, “ Baby I will sell you my heart with only one cost in return. That is to live your life with so much joy and no regret always remember mommy will always love you”. She takes a deep breath and awakes from her daydream while staring into the mirror. She hears her baby crying she walks up to her child pick the baby up and says, “ Its ok baby mommy here. I promise to not leave you, I will be here always and forever because I give you my heart and no one else will take that away”.